Tonight I get my sweetheart off the airport. It’s been very quiet without him. I never liked being alone, but since I am with Hass I am also not afraid of it anymore.
I do get a bit lazy though. I only did what the cats and my employers needed me to do. I guess its a build up to the busy months ahead.
One more day and an adventure I have been working towards for 6 months starts for me. I feel nervous and I was not sure why. I can do this. I did it before, but looking more closely I think its actually ‘Change’ that scares the bejesus out of me.
It is kind of strange to see, that what I seem to strive for so much, is also the thing that scares me. It pushes me out of my comfort zone and it terrifies me. However I know it is also the thing that gave me the best experiences of my life, which I am sure the comping weeks will be such an experience.
I am 35 years old and I am still growing. You are never to old to learn about the world but mostly about yourself.